The Blessedness of Possessing Nothing but Him

10 My beloved spoke and said to me, “Arise, my darling, my beautiful one, come with me. 11 See! The winter is past; the rains are over and gone. 12 Flowers appear on the earth; the season of singing has come, the cooing of doves is heard in our land. 13 The fig tree forms its early fruit; the blossoming vines spread their fragrance. Arise, come, my darling; my beautiful one, come with me.” -Song of Solomon 2:10-13

Good morning my beloved,

I have sought your hand for years & here you are in the midst of my presence. I am in awe of your beauty, your grace, your smile, your laugh, and even your compassionate tears. Please do not be afraid anymore for I am with you now. I will never leave you, nor forsake you. I pray that you will continue to grow in the goodness of our Great God, and that our love for Him toward one another will never fade. Thank you, my beloved, for your love, your care, and your presence.

Yours truly,

                           Your beloved 

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Current Read: The Pursuit of God By A.Z. Tozer

I love this book so far. It is hard to read but its words when you soak it in deeply, line by line, you see the intimacy the author carries toward the Great author & finisher of our existence. I appreciated the words he writes, the careful told truth in love. He writes about our deceiving hearts that interferes with our soul’s greatest pleasure. Our whole existence & being falls into the existence of our creator. And if we do not recognize that, we are missing out on the greatest joy we could be experiencing in this life, with ourselves, with one another, and most of all with God eternally.

The chapter I had finished reading is called the Blessed of Possessing Nothing  & starts out with the verse from Matthew 5:3 “Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” Personally speaking, no matter what I try to do in this life to reach the stars, to possess the most exciting material thing, to possess relationships & build more of them- in the end, it becomes meaningless. Or as Solomon puts it in Ecclesiastes, “meaningless under the sun.” I noticed the more I get older, the more my eyes are more open to the truth of this life, by the grace of God, & recognize that EVERYTHING belongs from Him. Every piece of item I own, the food I eat, my spouse, my family, to my hair on my head is all His.

I look at the children from the third world country & see their smiles on their faces. They sing, play, and rejoice daily. How often do I do that in my own life?

With all the things & people I possess in my life, I realize more that this world disrupts my worship to the one that deserves it all, when I deserve none of this.

Here’s a quote from the book that I highlighted:

We are often hindered from giving up our treasures to the Lord out of fear for their safety. This is especially true when those treasures are loved relatives and friends. But we need have no such fears. Our Lord came not to destroy but to save. Everything is safe which we commit to Him, and nothing is really safe which is not so committed.” (page 28)

Lastly, I will leave with this highlighted last line of this chapter, “our whole future will be conditioned by the choice we make.” 

How will the future generation remember you? 

 

 

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s p i n n i n g in circles

Have you ever felt like life can be a form of a circle? You are encompassing the same circle of flavorful adventures but in different forms of experiences. 

Let me back track. 

The moment I felt like God FINALLY had us in a place of constant, unchanging, livable, & comfortable situation to endure; well, God decides to shake things up a bit & allow our souls to not be settled JUST yet. Yes, its been like a year since my last post, but my goodness, your probably wondering, “WHAT HAPPENED to you?” Do you want the long version or short? I’ll go short since your cup of coffee won’t allow the amount of time for a long version. 

Here is it: 

February 2016. It was exciting, new, thrilling. Friends over, parties held, dinner dates with friends & family. Then Summer came. We problably were in the house 10% of the entire day each day that summer due to the extreme horrible heat coming through the walls with no AC to install anywhere but standing fans & one AC to fit perfectly into our masters bedroom. Fall came. Beautiful, relaxing, fire pits, outside dinners under the stars. December came, then winds, then storms, then rains. Our house slowly was pulling apart from the weather conditions. February 2017 came. Waterfall broke loose from our roof from the extreme rain shower conditions; hence all of our wedding gifts & valuables became no longer of value. How did we feel? We couldn’t help but laugh. It was hysterical. We knew it was coming & our landlord instead decided to take his sweet time to fix our roof before it got to this point. Hence, with all this in mind; we were forced to move out due to the severe & risky health issues we may face if we stayed in that home that contained mold & other chemicals that has lingered in the walls for over 20 years. Pretty scary. We moved out to a hotel, stayed 3 weeks, & now in Ontario where my parents sweetly offered to take us in while we are in transition for a new home. PHEW. 

Back to my circle. Here we are again: feelings of uncomfortablity, unchangable, unsetttling, suffocation, fervent in prayer, holding tighter to one another. I cannot help to think that over the years, God continues to test us, humble us, and mold us to keep us close to Him. More so, I can see how He has been stirring our hearts to be minimalist so that our void is not filled with the contentment of “bigger is better” mentality. And well, maybe God is answering my prayers in this way; answering from a prayer of asking God to keep us close to Him, to mold us into His image, to better us in a way that furthers His kingdom here on earth. 

Is your coffee almost done? It’s time to count our blessings in the midst of this trial.

1. Our parents came to church with us on Christmas Day. Now, we’re living with them. 

2. Our prospective seminar university is 5 minutes away from my parents house.

3. We sold the majority of our needs to save for a new home. The Lord took us out quicker than we imagined.

4. Our parents decided not to charge us rent, so we would save for a new home.

5. This trial has brought my husband & I closer.

6. A new change, a fresh start is always for God’s good & glory. I wonder what next He has in store. 

With that said, here’s to a new season, a new chapter, a continued (seemingly spinning) circle of God’s unimaginable blessings. 

“He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” – Psalm 91:1-2